Refreshed my LGC enrollment, but got sicker than a dog over the weekend. Well, not THAT bad but shit. Sneezing coughing snot mucus throat hurt headaches all kind of shit. I sit now though feeling okay. Bumping that old school, getting ready to head out into the city.
Many, many things have been running through my head as of recent, but if you know me there’s an order to the chaos that courses throughout these veins. Meaning, let me get my head together.. my Ma.. Dad.. This house that I LIVE IN.. woo wee.. I gotta go folks. Friends.. so called people who care.. fiending for a job that will put enough in my account for an apartment after a month or two.
What have I done. As of lately, nothing outside of the norm. And thats a problem. Besides having a star stricken conversation with my mother, everything else just bleeds in as normal. The chain must be broken. Thats why I feel trapped like this. Its too normal. Im not normal. Im out. I need out! I need dough to be out. No I don’t. I still think about women and money being the two most important things, but even outside of that there’s like this big missing piece of.. something. Women and Money? What the hell where are you priorities. I just know this isn’t how I want it be forever. What makes me get up and want to take risk? Nothing. Where’s my passion? My fire? To create wild things? Im almost done with hip hop/rap. At least the basic parts. I Want to expand now.. no more witty punchlines.. Im leaving the surface with the next project. Wont be easy with sooooooooo much pulling me down!
Construction truck pulling up outside the house cleaning up the remains of a septic tank job they’d done a few weeks ago. She’s on Fire! Amy Holland blaring my ears. Pre heating the oven for a quick sandwich and fries (shit I shouldn’t be eating this early in the morning) and I guess an episode of Heroes and I’ll be off.
Dunno. Not many other things bothering me right now, besides the ache to make life better. Just the basics of communication need to bump up.. Its all I have.. It needs to be clear and consistent.. Not just the bare minimum. I feel it getting better though.. I have a feeling that once my surroundings change thought I’ll be straight. Gotta look out for me right?
Welp. Don’t watch too much TV.
PEACE
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