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Nothing super duper. Woke up, washed dishes while listening to Snoop while trying to remember what I did to feel so good the day before yesterday. After washing those I went into the basement and turned on the PS3 to highlight the Video section and traveled down to a file called “Cardio Abs”. Actually before I got to that I surfed around some Martin episodes, some Exile stuff and some other vids, but I overall ended up at that workout vid. 

You want to talk pain? Breathing? I’ve worked out before, done the fit test over a few times so its not like I was a stranger. But every time I get busy I am more surprised by how much weight I carry. By just how heavy I am. But I don’t even feel it when Im walking, doing light jogging or doing daily stuff. But those stomach twist and leg lifts? Out of energy and breathing like someone was sucking the oxygen right out of my lungs. Im a smoker (no cigs just cannabis) so like I said before its no surprise. Its just crazy. I need to be on it though every morning so that I can get my foot back into the door of fitness and healthy living. I mean I know it requires proper dieting, cleaner water etc etc but stretching these muscles, waking up these muscles and getting my breath rotation back right is most certainly in the right direction.

So after the agony I showered got dressed and watched an episode of Martin with lunch. Just a couple tots with a sandwich and some hot and spicy cheezits. Things good man. I finished off the box while playing 2K on 360 fuck. Dallas didn’t want to lose so we went overtime. We came out on top though, my created player was player of the game. We got big passes and plenty of good looks so many assist were on the board. 

Turned that off watched a few episodes of The Simpsons. The one where Bart made Nelson bleed, and the one where Lisa had the blues and met the jazz man Bleeding Gums. I got extremely bored after that and decided to get some air. 

I walked to the backyard to a black cat with white paws chilling looking round. I sat on the step, plugged in my earbuds and hit play on Snoop. Fucked around on Facecrook and IG got bored with that and turned the 4G LTE off. Looking back up at the cat it was sleeping peacefully. The sky was a silvery blue. Pretty cool winds rustled through the leaves and trees. The cat woke up and saw me. I tried to call it over, but you know kitties. Just sat there. Listening to more music, switched over to Pharrell now. This time when I made the kitty cat sound (you know, that “tick tick tick” noise) the cat walked on over towards me, stopped and got on its back and starting wiggling around. Then a squirrel came out, and it and the cat had a quick stare down moment, like wild west but on animal mode. Squirrel went up the tree, stopped and starred at the cat, but the cat had already been looking on to other things. 

Going back in I thought and said “You know what, I want to play with Jordan” booted up 2K for PS3. Completely different controls than the other one I play, so I lost by like five points to the Wizards. Big disappointment. Went up stairs cleaned off a pair of OSIRIS that had been due for a cleaning ages ago. I just scrubbed off the big stains and dirt. They look pretty good now. Back down stairs and into the basement I did a little thinking and went back outside. Listening to Ludacris, he inspired me to do a little something, so I did. 

Terrible syndrome, don’t know whats causing it but I get all built up, all energized and ready to spit that good flame that people know Napalm for but as soon as the beat drops and I hit record its like all that just vanishes. Very annoying yes. But I did what I could do and I got some specials in on a few tracks so I guess I shouldn’t complain. But whatever thats annoying its an interference on my concentration and its not cool. 

Thats pretty much it tho. Worked on some music, my girlfriend came home from a shitty day at work. She told me all about it and I told her what she should do about it. She said she will attempt to do so. I had her cut up some potatoes so that I could fry them up, and so it happened. We ate with Bernie Mac until that went off and Martin came on. I sent her to sleep, downloaded an old song that popped into my mind called “Standing On The Top” by Rick James and the Temptations, man is that a classic piece of music. We used to get down and wild when that song came on. I mean its was party time for really real. Did a little more music engineering and now Im typing this. 

I notice, that whenever I find ways to make my energy purer as well as create a higher vibration its like something can’t take that and smushes all of that down then kicks it far, far away. I remembered how important I was to the world after reading old, really old blogs of my life a few days ago, and that relit a fire inside I hadn’t had for a very long time. I was feeling like “why live” “Its pointless” until I had read those blogs. I took part in so many different activities, had many friends, many MANY up and downs and all sorts of parties, family times and those feelings came back, my old humor came back, everything came back as if to say “We’ve Been Waiting On You! Welcome Back”. But since that day its been harder and harder to keep those emotions and good feelings up and alive. Maybe its suppose to be a fight. They say you see the sunshine after you weather the storm.

Well I’m pretty crabby and aggravated so I guess I’m headed to bed. I love you guys. Don’t do bad things if its not necessary for survival. 

PEACE