So, since 11/7/19 Ive sat downtown in jail, sat in a corrections program, stayed with my mom, and dad, and now Im on my own.
There was house arrest at my moms, and the first part of staying at my dads. I still worked, but had to go right back to where I swas staying.
Ive been off house arrest a few months now give or take. Im still on probation trying to get off early. I had a dirty pee once so far for alcohol. I still drink like a fountain, I just have to tip toe when it comes time for me to report to my probabtion officer.
Marijuana, I think about it, because I used tons of it from 2014 until 2019. But its not as appealing to me. At least now how it used to be. A, it cost. And B, you have to be (at least for me) in a good state of mind to use marijuana and get what you are supposed to get out of it. I get so depressed looking at my bills, my health, social life etc thats its like, why even get high.
I need some kind of social circle though. Since being out and off the ankle monitor I havent really met anyone. Tried re-kindling old flames, video calling old friends but thats been done. I dont even know the first step to really meeting any new people, besides social media.
I try to do events. Like REAL events. Not just getting wasted drunk and sitting at the park. Alone. Thats whack. I was supposed to go to Summer Jam this year, but I messed around and let the tickets get too crazy in price. Not paying $100+ to see some rappers who just came out a few years ago. Jeezy was there though. But no, I need like REAL stuff to do, like make PLANS and then PROCEED TO CARRY THOSE PLANS OUT. So, I want to go see Coheed this Sunday, which I might because the tickets arent over $60. Then The Killers are coming in October, I’d like to see them too. I really dont know what else to do. I dont know how many more times I can get trashed and go to the movies though. It was cool the first couple hundered times, but now, eh.
Got a car from my dad. A cool $1000. Catch was, its been sitting for the past 3 or 4 years. So I’ll have to get it towed to a mechanic and have him look at it, which I KNOW is going to dig into my lettuce if you know what I mean. New battery, spark plugs tires etc etc not to mention windshield. And of course the things Id like to do it after its up and running like add some rims or hubcaps, a screen inside, some subwoofers etc. But yeah I passed my permit test so I should be taking it in to be looked at soon and possibly taking the road test in about a month.
Had a couple jobs since being out. Longest was a warehouse near Glenwillow. Dirt Devil/Hoover. Boy, was it an intresting job. At first it was cool, painful but cool. Then, things starting to change a bit. It was a bit more lenient because I was hired through an agency. So I wasnt punished if I didnt show up everyday, yet, I showed up faithfully because A, love my mother bu didnt feel like sitting around her place all day and B needed income. Of course C, on probabtion so working looks good especailly consistantly for a steady year. So what happened? Well, the owner decieded to close one of the company’s warehouses and guess which one. So yeah had to go. Got calls to go work at their other location but I had already started at Nestle.
Nestle was the most money I had seen in a WHILE. The problem was A, I was still on the bus and B, they wanted me to work ALL SEVEN DAYS OF THE WEEK. No can do seeing as how I still have to complete Court Community Service on the weekends and yeah how to I say this.. I’d like to NOT turn into a vegetable.
So now Im at a little place called Maid Brite. As the name states, we go around to different clients and well, play maid. Clean this, dust that. Every so ofter special requests are put in and its up to us to get it done. Do I like it? Its alright. Do I see myself doing it for life? Probably not. Is it alot less stressful than the last batch of jobs Ive been on? HELL YEAH. Can the co-workers and managers be funny acting and annoying? HELL YEAH
Living situation. Well, Ive been out of the homeless shelter for about three weeks. Got sent to a halfway house called Harbor Light. Still right Downtown, one bus away from work so commute is not bad. Is it better than the shelter? There’s a different structure here. No alcohol, no computers or games (Even though I game and study on the Mac everyday) and they accept less bullshit than they would at the shelter. The purpose is to get you ready to live on your own. Food is eh, it gets hot in the rooms and these other bunkies act like my nerves are a stage for tap dancing at times. But there are showers, snack give aways and they do save you a lunch and a dinner if you ask so that when you get off you wont starve.
So things are alright I guess. Im not happy, there are many personal acheivements I have yet to reach because I let my mind drift into the wrong places EVERYDAY.
Its all good. I still study Core A+ stuff (One day a week) but its still better than nothing. (Okay maybe two days a week). I have study material on my phone and Mac so there is really no excuse. I dilly around on Dolphin, just installed Retroarch (two useless programs that have nothing to do with studying) which keep me distracted on the weekends and when I get off work. Also have mounds of Movies and TV shows on an external which also dont help. Will motivate self to study since being a maid until Im 50 just doesnt seem very George Fortune like. Unless they want to sell me the company. That would be a diffrent language. Speaking of that
I need to find another job. I had a nice second gig that paid loads of cheese but that went away. So Im thinking Doordash once I get this car up and running. Which isnt smart, wear and tear and miles on an already used car. Ill figure something out. Need second string of income. The vending machines, computer diagnostic software and mobile car washing services wont just appear out of thin air
Welp I guess thats it for a while. Finish these Chewy Sweetarts, playing some Phantasy Star and re-start the Weeds series.
Be cool. Being hot all the time is exhausting.
