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Whenever I finish reading a book or skimming an article it seems like talking to people becomes a little bit harder. I try to find the subject in ones conversation and its lost on me. Whats hilarious is when another person hears the exact thing I did they understand completely. Its like an invisible wall.

Played some Soul Calibur, got some freestyles in and looking to keep my hustles up as far as these computer repairs and job apps. The more I pump out the merrier. Many openings should be shinning their lights due to the holiday rush fast approaching, which is why my applications are going in now. Following up on them is something I should make more of a habit of though. So they can put a voice with my name. 

New conversations with new people have opened up new opportunities as far as friendships go, so communication has seen a slight increase. Ah also plans to go to a Haunted House this year. Its been ages. I had to be about sixteen or seventeen the last time. From what I remember the experience was something else. Floating mask, zombies and chainsaw men inside of houses all kinds of eye jarring things to gawk at. Things have changed in just the course of a few years, so we shall see.

Also a new mixtape have been completed. The beats have seen an upgrade, and so have delivery. Gripping that texture of wordplay with tempo mixture that can’t be denied is definitely in view. Reaching for the next set a bit too quickly is where the bumps are. The more I get to listen feel and react to what the music prints out, the closer I get to how it will sound when the project is compete. So far though, Im still aching to build or get into a full fledge studio.

Walked up to Family Dollar. Got a few frozen pizzas and some soups. No nice weird lady this time, but the chick at the cash register was pretty cheeky. I can’t wait to get a car, a job and some dough so that I can be a bit more friendlier with these cute people. I shouldn’t need that though. Well the day moves on either way. And it did. Walked home got inside where I appreciated the warmth of the oven. Threw in a pizza and loaded up Mass Effect. Speaking of gaming

The games. Much more Soul Calibur IV, Tekken series and GTAV. Bought a golf course, movie theatre and a local bar with Michael. Obtained a car lot and filled it up with four cars, three of which have been modified for racing with Franklin. And for Trevor, well I don’t know what business to buy with him. I updated his truck, bull horns on the front with maxed out engine and brakes. We’ll see whats on the map in that. Ivy’s three stances for her whip are becoming clearer. As you watch her whip it changes into its own separate forms from coil stance sword stance and whip stance. Chaining the stances together initiate custom combos that can be hard to avoid if the opposing player isn’t paying attention lol

Unlocked more chars on Tekken 3. About three maybe four more to go. The more I play the more I notice Tekken hasn’t really changed over the years. The same battle engine is pretty much intact in each and every game, just tweaked in different ways. Characters like Paul, Jin and Kazuya hold true to their same move set game after game, somehow refreshing the attacks making them seem like new. The stages start to get eventful and plush in Tekken 4, and the campaign with addition of more characters in Tekken 6 just adds to the series stability. Honestly, I’m interested in what Namco will release with Tekken 7. Thats probably when it’ll be time to start thinking about getting a PS4 lol

Anywho reading up on Motor Vehicle Laws, watching an episode of New Girl and thinking about going over a buddies house tomorrow, I end this blog on a note that says, today hasn’t been bad. 

PEACE

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I just don’t have the will. For what? As weird as it sounds, for Work. 

Its a long story about me and work. We’ve had ups and downs.. Ive been played by work and I’ve ran schemes on work. When I say work, I mean like a Job. White Castle, K-Mart, those kind of jobs. But the reason my will to find work (even as I fill in and submit app after app) is personal.

It seems as if work is never about, well, work. Its always about the people and their personal issues. Its always some fake ass person you have to pretend to be chummy with. Its always about dodging questions about your personal life. Its more about the doughnuts and orange juice they brought in that morning. It seems like work is about everything but work. Its about clashing personalities.Who can brag the cleanest. Who can get the girl. Which chicks work pants were the tightest that day. How much small talk can I take before feeling like Im about to blow. Its about making it to break. The discounts… and blah blah blah.

I wish work was about work. Thats what I report to a job to do lol. Just that. Not chit chat, make new friends, I already have friends, I already have a life, don’t need a second one. I don’t need to prove anything to anybody except for me and the person that hired me. My worth at work shouldn’t be based on me knowing the score from last nights game or if I laughed at some co-workers corny jokes, but in my opinion should based on how fast and efficient my work is. How I effect the company Im working for. How well I keep up with the rush of having many extra things to do on top of my usual load. Thats what I report to do.. But because Im not licking any and everybody’s butthole that walks in my direction.. 

Its alright. My own business has been on my mind for years now. I don’t think computer repair will reap as much as I thought it would tho. Maybe I can make it side service. My whole life Im finding out is.. a lot different than I seen it originally. Many things are simple that I thought were complicated. And things that I thought were hard to understand are.. rather simple when looked at with a clean and fairer focus. And looking at me owning my own computer repair shop.. just seems kinda slow.. I see shops on the east and westside and they look empty.. Its not as popular. People would rather call Apple themselves or Dell or go to Best Buy and talk to Geeksquad for whatever reason. Like they won’t charge out the wahzoo. Don’t get me wrong my passion will always to fix tinker and repair technology, especially computers but thinking about my future right now it seems like Im chasing a dream thats simply not reachable right now. Im not getting enough clients every week, one maybe three.. five six on a good week. Its almost like America is saying “Sorry son, but you are destined to sit your ass in a seat and be lectured to death again for another two to four years, or work a part-time job until you die”

Just thoughts tho. Chilling before I go donate listening to Chance The Rapper. We’ll see how I feel through the Winter. Apps for Night Auditor and Crew Team Member have been turned in. Print new flyers again, new cards, again, putting the finishing touches on the website. Client flaked on me yesterday, said her trackpad has been acting weird. Called and said her money was funny. Another client who wants a fresh Windows with Office is suppose to drop the system off at another client of mines house, where I look at his system as well. He says his DVD drive is on the fritz. Im thinking a driver re-install. Another guy asked me about a laptop screen replacement. Someone else needs antivirus, not the free stuff the full gig so Im waiting on that connection when they need it they’ll hit me. 

Well this Chance is ight. I like some of these tracks. Super trippy. Deep breath and off I go.

Don’t watch TV any longer than a few hours. Thats still too long.

PEACE