Unleashing your own existence amongst other forces is a task in itself, before you even begin to realize your purpose in being.
What? Know what you are and what your purpose is can't be the only way. You have to be ready for the obstacles and possible dangers that come with knowing. Thats the very reason for being aware!
After having this place for over a year, working on two I am quickly realizing how lucky (and or course for the darth vader fans, "unlucky") I've been to be living with no wife, no girl or children friends etc not even a pet. I've been able to explore the problems in my own mind with the worlds basic distractions. All I have to do to stay alive is work with the people who clothed housed and fed me. That means keep them up to date with any progress I make job wise, in case I land a job that pays salary I would then have leave the estates or living quarters since I make enough to survive on my own.
Because of ALL of that Im researching government slavery religion health fashion and even a little political structure. My mind is opening faster than my narc family can take (because they still pop up to ruin any BIG plans that are made by damaging my nervous system and respiratory make) I am freeing myself from them, but also my own loyal ways towards my family and government so I have to tread carefully.
Seeing the doctor again for my newly found gaul bladder polyp. She said had I not found it sooner it could have turned into cancer. I do drink more water than usual and workout but I know I could be doing better. I get organic whatever I can afford. Im having heavy thoughts about going back to no meat. I felt lighter and better and was dealing with people with clearer communication.
Anywho I want Melty Blood for Xbox, but every time I see it's full price. I got a Jobstack the other day so I can pay for my Starz subscription to finish Power Book II and watch Saw X again. Im good on shoes and summer attire if you ask me. I know I could use some new shorts and T-Shirts but I have to keep weekly and monthly bus passes every interval since I let my car get junked last year. Smh
But yep. Trying to get good in 2K (2K23), been playing both Marvel games (Ultimate and Infinite).
If you wear a backpack, pack it like its the last day of your life before you leave.
PEACE
