Went a whole year without blogging. Here goes bringing in the New Year
Having a rocking time here at the new place, good and bad. Bad as in leaving this side of the building, neighbors are too dangerous for my personal situation. They'll kill me thinking Im the narc Im carrying and I can't afford to be round people that stupid.
Another than that Ive smoked ALL the weed (relax, its legal) drank ALL the wine beer and liquor (done with beer forever, unless its free or offered) and danced many of nights away spraning ankles on the way. I did lose my car being silly, I also lost my parents, which isn't so silly. In fact it isn't silly at all.
I feel empty and lost without them. I felt them leave me when they passed on to the next life. People kill me with that we dont go anywhere when we die bullshit. Miss me with that. I did my parents bidding before they went, as well as my grandma, I still wish I could've did them a better job in letting them know things will suck but Ill be fine. They've taught me worlds of knowledge and given me galaxies of love that no one can even roll off of their tongue, let alone try to understand.
Another than that its been new shoes, new weed, new shoes, new games, new weed, no new clothes (old ones I haven't even started mixing up yet) new job, quit a job, new job, quit a job, laid off a job and yep its 95% narc related. I can't help but to realized its over for anything long term right now, which is bad considering Im THIRTY SEVEN years of age and the years CLEARLY aren't slowing down. Neither are the deaths in the family. Sometimes I can't help but to think Im next even though I do nothing but stay inside and drown myself in books on Marcus Garvey, Nat Turner etc etc etc and those are just the few books I fuck with. I can't wait to increase my collection on what I need to be reading as well as what I want.
Ive lost major weight. At least twenty pounds in the last month or so. Money has been super scarce. I had jobstack going great until I got into it with some dude who thought I was slow, so there's that. Fucked up the whole flow of shit. Now its back to various job agencies and CSL until I can get in touch with the branch and fix shit back up. I need the cheese. I asked the landlady about eviction, she said dont worry about it, but I know I have only a few months before it will be brought up.
Another other than that, I dont really do shit. I smoke alone, dont hang with anyone and its BLISSFUL. I dont have my pet bunny yet (Im thinking of naming him Roger) my diet is coming along great (I still sneak soda and snacks) and I broke my skateboard into splinters. I need to be talking to more females though, it does get cold for no reason in my place, even when the heat is blazing to all high hell. So far, no complaints on my tunes being ultra loud. If anything they say "Hike that shit up"
Looking forward to seeing more of my family this year. I contacted and saw a bit of em last year and as difficult as it was to pull myself together it helped just knowing I can go to other peoples houses. You know, raid fridges use phones (since I broke mine at work in Westlake) and just bother people for an hour or so. You never know how people feel about you until you stop by or give them a call. Its usually the same though
Well alright. Happy 2024. Two snows all year and we've just gotten started
PEACE
