Long time no blog.
There is a lot going on, but first. First first first.
The strangest thing. I feel as if, everyone is copying me. Or watching me. Or mimicking me. Sometimes I find it cute. Most times though it drives me INSANE.
Why? I honestly don't know. I carry on with daily life (whatever that's worth these days) and do both what I am supposed to do while also doing what I CAN do. And those two things are not easy to do.
There are instances where I can try and talk to a person, but they'll cut right front in me in mid conversation just to say "I already knew what you were going to say". Its like, if you already know what I am going to say, then why say it?
Then there's other instances. Like I can do a simple movement or gesture to say itch my nose or yawn or something ordinary. Someone around me will do the gesture in front of me or before me just to say "I was first". Its like, oooookay. If I had cookies to pass out for doing that, Id be out within an hour. Maybe even first half.
It kind of reminds me of elementary school. A grade school from WAAAAAAAAAAAAY back in the day. That's nice, but when you are a 35 year old college drop out with a record, things get sticky with that concept. And we all act surprised when the blow up happens. "Oh, we never seen this coming". "Oh my God. After all we've done for him (Ha!) how can he ever be upset".
As I said, there are bigger more important issues to handle, like finding EMPLOYMENT, place to LIVE. Maybe a CAR? I don't know. Maybe those things aren't first on the list of survival anymore.
Work wise I've been attending the same job pretty faithfully for the past 8 months. I wanted it to be a year, but the place might be closing soon. Due to Co-vid? Probably. I'm going to ride that until the wheels fall off and finish out with a bang so that when I go to my next job, whoever's hiring can say "Alight he might be around for the long haul". You know how it is right? Felon, brown skin, no real work history, things can be bleak. But being me, trying to stay optimistic, ANYHTING CAN HAPPEN
Where I'm living. Right. So I had ample opportunity to save buku bucks but what did I do? One Amazon turned into ten, two Marketplaces turned into twenty and bam I'm broke. I have a little saved up, just enough to find a cheap place somewhere. Hoping the neighborhood is decent and the utilities are included (as I said, pigs have been flying lately) that's about the only way I see that happening.
Automobile. Well after finishing remedial driving course and the standard driving lesson, re-instating my license and finding my feels behind the wheel again, I did purchase a car that only needs a few things to get up and running. So at least that's one step towards something.
Everything else though, relationships, family, friends and community wise I still need to put things together. Speaking of community
Community Service, for what feels like the one hundredth time, starts at the end of this week. So balancing work and that alone is going to eat up anytime I have to work on my license, on top of the fact I have to study for my A+ cert if I plan on finding at least lightly better work that's at least in the field I belong to. Warehouse work is cool, but its PHYSICAL
Welp that's enough bloated ranting for today. Please listen to people before retorting. Thank you
