Well, Im still at my mothers, and will probably be here until January. I am still recovering from escaping my first steep narc relationship, and my mom can kind of understand.
I got my first stimulus, which could not have come at a better time. Just about anything I need, her husband will go out to Wal*Mart and I just Cash App him the end total. I landed a warehouse job at TTI Floorcare, so of course work shoes, lunch materials etc had to be purchased. Because I am restricted to this building only I cannot go to any store to do any kind of shopping whatsoever.
Things are still pretty weird as far as my social relationships with people. My family remembers me as who I was before I was living with the narcs, but I dont thing they understand the severity of the damage done to my spirit soul and mentality. It is going to take a few years minimum before I can even dream of who I was before encountering them.
Right now, I am just thankful that I explained to her most of what was going on and whats happened to me and the challenges that ensue. She is still no nonsense as she has always been but she can kind of overlook how some of me isnt responding right now. I just feel a little better knowing that an actual real family member is in my corner.
I still have to find a storage unit and retrieve my things from their place. And even then, my P.O. says she only wants my father, nobody else, in the house and getting my stuff. Which is tough, because I havent spoken to him in probably a few years. Im going to get a few paychecks and then try to put a call to him.
Other than that, nothing is really going on, not like anything really can. Im getting prepared to retake the drivers exam, looking at used cars and taking peeks at affordable apartments. Work is work, money being saved. Its also a workout. Whew! Warehouse work is no joke. Just getting ready to be back out there on my own, repeice together my life as I see it to be. Its a recovery for sure, and its definitely not a quick process. But its possible!
Well, thats it. Wash your hands and keep your mouth and nose covered.
