I had to learn this the hard way. Its been almost 8 months spent in corrections facilities, 6 in county jail and 2 and a half at a community based corrections place.
I found out the person I was dealing with has had a serious hold on my interaction with other people, which explains why my family dropped out of the picture while I was living with "those people".
I found out the person I was dealing with has had a serious hold on my interaction with other people, which explains why my family dropped out of the picture while I was living with "those people".
Now, before I go one, I am definitely to blame. A, I am a grown man who decided to stay in that situation knowing how toxic it was and how bad it was for me mentally. And B, no matter how embarrassing, I should have sought help or guidance from outside family no matter how deeply I felt they would never understand.
So long story short, after coming out of jail the second time and having nowhere to go, I took it upon myself to think its okay to go back and stay at the "victims" house knowing there was a protection order on the place, as stated in one of my last vlogs. Things werent going good, but werent going bad either. I took it upon myself to trip over something in the basement and her father heard it, calling the police. That resulted in me catching a felony charge.
Now here I sit, at my mothers on house arrest for six months. According to my p.o. everything is being run by the judge. He said if it was up to him, I would only have 3 months of house arrest if any since I did so well being violation free throughout the county jail and the community based corrections facility. But since this particular judge is up his ass about all of her cases, he has to pretty much play the puppet. What he said was as long as I stay on top of the things I am supposed to, like knocking out community service hours, finding a job, saving money getting a place a car things like that he will submit a good report on my behalf and I could possibly be released from this ankle monitor after three months.
Not to mention, everything I've ever owned sits in her basement. Its a struggle getting my things from over there because first, SHE has to okay anyone coming over to get the stuff and second I have to somehow come up with a way to store those things while I find employment and a place to live. So yeah
Its been a real exciting year so far in 2020. Kobe and his daughter, Covid 19, George Floyd amongst many other situations. Its good to back around my mother though, I am thankful for that. She is am extremely great person to be around. Her husband is pretty cool too. Im surprised to STILL be dealing with symptoms of "those people" like I am still around them everyday, its really strange. But, the more I do for myself and the more I seek honesty and clarity the further away I see those symptoms going.
Its been a real exciting year so far in 2020. Kobe and his daughter, Covid 19, George Floyd amongst many other situations. Its good to back around my mother though, I am thankful for that. She is am extremely great person to be around. Her husband is pretty cool too. Im surprised to STILL be dealing with symptoms of "those people" like I am still around them everyday, its really strange. But, the more I do for myself and the more I seek honesty and clarity the further away I see those symptoms going.
Well thats its for now. I have an appointment Monday at the court community service building and then I have to see my p.o. after that. Im going to see if he's called the "victim" about someone coming to get my things. Other than that, alot is really on hold due to this ankle monitor, no income and Covid-19.
Stay safe out there. Mask up.
Stay safe out there. Mask up.
